It always happens as I’m driving away. When the metal clicks in my seat belt, the engine hums and I turn left, doubt starts to whisper. Left alone, even for a moment, with my thoughts sets me up for second guesses to pester and comparisons climb all over me.
My thoughts roll to the rhythm of the rubber on the highway. I doubt. I wrestle. I second guess and I stop.
I compare. And I always come up short.
My shortcomings now blatantly obvious, I put on my sunglasses and pull down the visor. Instead of calling that person back, I crank the music a bit louder.
Inabilities screaming, I shush the hopeful dreams back into the closet label “you’re not ______ enough for that”.
Comparisons lie, spouting out what we are not so that we won’t see who we really are. Our identities now hidden behind doubts and fears.
The Promised Land is overtaken with giants and classified as impossible.
I heard Steven Furtick say one thing the other day and it has me up at midnight digging up the story in Numbers 13 and 14. He said “You only need 2 spies”.
You know the story right? Moses and the Israelites were wandering in the desert with all the conveniences of desert dwelling, or inconveniences more-like. They get to the boarder between the desert and their promised land and send in Twelve spies to check it out.
The twelve return singing praises about the bounty, the fruit, and the incredible beauty BUT there are “giants” in the land. A frenzy of fear flows through the men. All of them tangled up in comparisons. Doubting their strength against those bigger, stronger and more powerful foreign people. This fear, this feeling of defeat, spreads like fire to all the rest of the Israelites.
All of them except for two.
Those two had the courage to say: “Wait. This land is exceedingly good. It is our promised land. If the Lord promised it to us – well then, He’s gonna help us get there.”
The majority of the spies, chosen leaders from among the Israelite nation, start measuring their abilities up against these giants. They compare the strength of their muscles. They compare their strategic locations and their number of soldiers. Based on their comparisons they decide they can’t possibly win and so why even try. Quit now, they say.
They even go as far as saying it would have been better had they stayed in slavery back in Egypt.
They were ready to forgo their promised land because of comparisons.
But two spies held steadfast to ONE very sure thing. The character of God.
These people had been wandering in the wilderness and saw first hand the faithfulness of God. They’d witnessed rescue. They’d experienced provision. They’d been profoundly protected. God’s character had walked with them day and night, every single step of the way without fail.
How many times do we do the same thing? Standing on the edge of our dreams looking in at others already taking up residence there; we size ourselves up and decide there’s no way we’ll make it. Retreating, we shut down, minimize and avoid. Before we know it we’re turning away from the promise all together.
If I were to compare myself to those giants I’d surely fail. True.
If I were to compare myself to those positioned ahead of me I bet they do it better. Maybe.
If I were to compare my unanswered prayer to their answered prayer I bet I’ll be forgotten.
But If I were to compare those same giants to the faithfulness of God…
God has not yet failed us. His word and His promises have proven true every single time. He is with us, He sees us and His love is everlasting.
If we were to compare the impossible situation to the sovereignty of God, we’ll find hope.
If we were to compare our waiting to the faithfulness of God, we’ll find perseverance.
If we were to compare our faults and inabilities to the grace and mercy of God, we’ll find strength.
Those Giants are no match for our God.
“… The Lord is with us. Do not be afraid of them.” Numbers 14:9
“God is within her, she will not fail…” Psalm 46:5
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