I cringe at that word. Vulnerability. It’s such a loaded collection of letters. Loaded with all the good things authenticity can hold, yet also with inherent risk. Crazy hard and painful risks, even perilous at times. I’ve written a lot about vulnerability, it’s truly been the crux of why I write. Admittedly, it is a love/hate relationship with vulnerability. But I’ve been challenged recently to look at it from a different perspective. What if within our vulnerabilities is a demonstration of Divine Love?
I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve. You could call it a weakness. I get overwhelmed by the emotions (before I have the logical thoughts) and it inevitably will show. If I were to be completely honest with you… it debilitates me sometimes.
What are your vulnerabilities—the things that trip you up often, get in your way as you pursue your dreams? Maybe it’s a physical ailment, or an emotional wound? Perhaps it is a mindset or ingrained expectation?
The world would say it’s your problem. And you need to buck up and fix it. Right? Do you ever say this phrase: If I could only address ______ (insert your weakness), then I could ______ (insert your crazy big dream).
If only I could find a way to manage all my emotions so that no one will ever doubt me and my abilities, then I could finally ….
But here’s the thing I am slowly coming to realize. God loves me just as is. We know that right? But let the reality of that thought wrap all the way around you. God loves me IN MY WEAKNESS. And I do mean love. My weaknesses don’t bother Him, they don’t disqualify me from being in His presence and they certainly don’t affect His calling on my life. Because He loves me for the sake of love.
Guess what, your vulnerabilitys don’t change His love for you either. The world will count your weaknesses against you. But God sees that crack in your armor as a prime place to put His glory. I say we let Him.
2 Corinthians 12:10 says: “That is why for Christs sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, than I am strong.”
The greatest evangelist that ever lived had something that ailed him so much so that he never wrote about it. But he begged God to take it. Begged. Pleaded. Called all the intercessors and pray chains he could think of. Emailed all the TV evangelists and filled out the card in every offering bucket.
But the Spirit of God had other plans.
“But He (the Holy Spirit) said to me (Paul, the evangelist), ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Cor. 12:9).
God leans in to your weaknesses. Your vulnerabilities are where He leans in to be near you. How is that not love? We strive so hard to hide them, to keep them silent and push them aside—but what if we openly acknowledged that the very places we don’t have it all together was the very place we needed a savior? What if we looked up from those weak places and let Jesus in?
Wrestling with my own struggles, I recorded this: