Oh friend! I could not be more delighted to start this journey with you! Isn’t God’s timing perfect, always?! Throughout this Advent I will be blogging every Sunday and Wednesday through Liz Curtis Higg’s book: The Women of Christmas. Starting today!!! As you pull out the decorations and begin to fill your calendar with all sorts of fun festivities, I pray you will also find quiet moments of wonder and refreshed revelations of glory. Grab your coffee and snuggle up on the couch, lets savor this Season together!
I stood there, overwhelmed by fear, all the hope simply emptied out of my soul. There is just no way it could come together, no way this aching dream of mine could actually become reality. All of the signs confirmed it was impossible.
“It just isn’t meant for me.”
How often have you whispered those words? Maybe the disappointment has been gut-wrenchingly real so many times before, so much so that you don’t even think those words anymore – in fact you have truly stopped believing all together.
Our Christmas study opens with this very heart ache. And truth? I have breezed past this one part of the story so many times. (We are in Luke 1:5-18 today).
Zechariah has just been told he and his wife’s pleading prayers for a child will be answered! These prayers they have wept before the Lord for an agony of years have apparently been heard. You would think that with an angel standing visibly before him declaring the answer he’d longed to hear, he’d fall flat on his face exploding with excitement. Or at least he’d bolt from the temple screaming for Elizabeth to tell her the great news.
No, not Zechariah. Instead he crosses his arms and drops his head. He whispers back to this Angel of God, “How can I be sure?”
This priest. This man of God. This one who’s job was working around the presence of the Lord. He and his wife were praised in scripture for being “righteous in God’s sight”.
And yet he doubted. He doubted enough to say so.
I don’t know about you but this hit me, hard. I too doubt. I question whether or not “God really said that”. I feel uncertain that he really meant it for me. Seeing Zechariah here in this place of shaky knees and pleading hands is reassuring. Like me, he doesn’t know how his story will end.
But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
There is something about the vulnerability Zechariah expressed before the Lord. It is a display of an utter dependence on our sovereign Lord. God is more than aware of our short comings and inabilities but He delights in our relationship with Him. The glory in our dreams coming true or our prayers being answered is not in the magnitude of our faith or the perfection of our religious acts. It is in His love.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27